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[February 27th, 2009] |
I feel like writing again.
Looking over my past entries, I was so immature and it really makes me feel weird when I read them. Oh well, the past is the past. I love going to college and my decision to do the NJSTARS program. It was the right choice for me to stay home at this point in my life. When I transfer in a year and a half, I will either end up at TCNJ, Rowan, or Kean. It all depends on what scholarships I get and if I want to go away. We'll see.
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[June 11th, 2007] |
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My brother comes home from the hospital today. He has lost some weight, but he is going to be okay. It will just take sometime to regain his full strength again.
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[June 8th, 2007] |
They still don't know what is wrong with my brother. He has a raging fever up and down. Stomach issues and vomiting.
He has been there since Thursday. I am worried about him. I am going to visit him tomorrow.
Hospitals make me uncomfortable.
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[May 14th, 2007] |
I am not feeling well. My head hurts and my ears are clogged........my throat feels like I swallowed a cactus.
Only good thing---my dad rented a bayhouse for memorial week. I get to miss school for an extra two days and bring my dog!!! Its really pretty....
ALSO.........................ITS TWO TOWNS AWAY FROM JANEEN'S HOUSE!!! WE GET TO VISIT EACH OTHER DURING MEMORIAL WEEKEND!!!!!
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| A long needed entry |
[April 10th, 2007] |
My parents have been pissing me off incredibly these past few weeks. I know I am the last child and am fairly independent. I can take care of myself in the sense of obvious things...how I should behave, appearance, school. I bring home better than average grades, have a job, and NEVER ask them for money. I am responsible and compassionate. I rarely do anything wrong...at least nothing serious.
It's just that I feel like they don't care about minimal things...like getting an A on a paper or getting in National Honors Society. They have been through it all and its nothing new to them...but I am a separate being from my brothers and sister. I need the same amount of attention they received...like it was new and refreshing. Not like, "Rachel we expect nothing less from you, so we only say something if we see less than that." It really bothers me. I love my family, a whole damn lot. More than anything. I just kind of feel like they leave me in the dust sometimes, expect me to care for myself alone a little too much. It gets kind of lonely.
My brother is self-sufficient. Lives on his own. My other brother is about to graduate college and my sister is doing her own thing in college. Where does that leave me? Being the youngest of four sometimes is hard. Everything is like..."being the middle child is hard"....so is being the youngest...with overachieving siblings..
Is there something about me not worth noticing? Do I fade into the background that easily?
I know I am special and worth it. I know my parents think that....I just wish they would show it more...that's all.
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[April 5th, 2007] |
Sleeping over Mel's on Tuesday and staying up until 6:30 AM was not the smartest idea in the world. I have been paying for it these past two days. :-(.
Super tired, but of course I have to always work and babysit.
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[March 8th, 2007] |
I feel kind of bad saying this.....but I have noticed lately, that there a lot of people who gross/creep me out.
It sends shivers down my spine.
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[March 5th, 2007] |
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Honestly, what does a person have to do to maintain their street cred?
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[March 4th, 2007] |
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Alright, so I am in love with Dashboard. New single "Stolen".....the radio version is utterly terrible. The album edit is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo muchhhhhhhh better. I honestly think that faster version is going to ruin their street cred.
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[February 28th, 2007] |
Okay, at work today....another dude personally tipped!!!! CREEEPPYYYY!!!!
"Here darling, this is especially for you!"
...............but its more money....
I am reading so much lately. I am so glad I am literate and intelligent....so I can read good books.
I want to own a book store..
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